things running thru my head.

On a night when i am so tempted to fill this blog with fun pics of bday cakes and complaints about my wobbly desk, things much bigger just fill my mind. i'd feel selfish and silly spending my time on that tonight. please, don't get me wrong. i have definitely blogged about the little things and it is often those little things that lead to the bigger picture perspectives. but today seems like a day when i've been reminded that it's not, in fact, all about me. go figure.

it's so easy to do that, too. in my bible, i'm studying the book of esther. today, the study said something that really caught my attention. "If we distance ourselves long enough from real needs, we replace them with those that aren't. Pretense becomes the new real... We are wise to force ourselves to keep differentiating between simple inconveniences and authentic tribulations. The more detached and self-absorbed we become, the more we mistake annoyances for agonies" (from beth moore's study on Esther).  think about it.

i was agonizing this morning because i had to move my computer away from the window because the EXterminator was coming. boo me.

on monday, i start a very important job. my dear friends are going overseas for 3 weeks because they are in the final stages of adopting a little girl.  i'm staying with their 3 boys at home. get ready for some fun blog entries! i'll probably blog everyday. mostly for Rayna's sake ;) anywhoo, i'm excited. these boys are sweethearts. and we have a lot of support from our church community. but i want to give all that i have to this family right now. when you care for someone else, i think you really remember that it's not all about you. or rather, i remember that it's not about me. and praise the Lord it's not. because that would just be one hot mess.   so i'm excited for what i will learn in these next couple of weeks. it's gonna be a good time.

me and one of the little guys i'll be staying with. yeah, that's my bday cake :)