just breathe.

i leave in well, about 24 hours. i'm doing the same thing i did when i left the states. taking everything in. realizing this is the last time for a while for a couple things. the last time i will wake up looking out this window... for a while.

never say never. thanks joanna, a classmate.

today, my classmates gave me a gift. it was really sweet. i had nothing to say because the few words that were coming to mind were only coming in english. not catalan. not spanish. but we've bonded. we have something special. there is no competition to prove ourselves better than each other. we are all emigrants here, away from our families. away from what we know. and though i've only known them for about a month, really, we share a special bond that not many may ever understand. we know random facts about each other. laugh with each other. and listen to each other. we are an odd bunch, really. and each person has their quirk. but each has taught me something precious about life and love, about myself, about others. about differences. and for that, i am forever grateful.

good night. no more thinking about my bags being overweight for the plane. no more thinking about re-adjusting to life in the states. no more wondering who i will speak spanish with and who i will practice catalan with. no more thinking about plans. or dates. or things to do. or lists.  no more thinking about good byes. just time for bed. bona nit.