thoughts.

how to begin today's entry? how about with what's on my mind?!

I just saw Luna Nueva, or as the peeps in the good old US of A call it, New Moon. Now, I had actually been a Twilight hater. (Sorry sissy, you were... *gasp*... right. as usual. no surprise there.) But last night, it came on the tv and so we watched it. Then, my prima decided we should see the new one tonight. so we did. and i'm not gonna lie. i really want to read the series now. it's about the love story. i'm such a sucker for a love story.  i mean, really, who isn't?! Don't we all imagine the perfect love story for ourselves? well... news flash. life isn't perfect. we are not perfect. and the best love story we have is Jesus Christ on the cross.

Thursday at bible study, the question was asked, "so what? why does god's love matter? what purpose does it serve for me?" that's a good question. one of those questions i should have an answer for, right? the answer for, right? well, no matter what i put, you will have your opinions and i will have my thoughts. though what i know to be true is that something about life, about us as human, leads me to believe that something isn't right here. something isn't as it should be. and that's because we are broken people. but God sent his son to live and die here for us. because no matter what we do, we can't make up for the crap that we cause. and he did it because of his great love for us. not that we do anything to deserve it. unfailing love. unlike anything else. i mean, it doesn't make everything nice and cushy in my life. that's for sure. but it's hopeful.  and it's changing me.in a world that is changing, god's love does not.  

the seasons are finally changing here. this is a pic down by the port.

i noticed the other day how contrasting this scene was for me compared to the green lush leaves of early september. i came here for a season in my life. and i think god brought me here literally for a season. i'm heading back to nj quite soon, actually. and then, who knows. :) honestly. part of me hates to make plans because it always seem that things work out differently then i planned. yet plans make me feel accomplished when i complete them. so, if you didn't know, now you do. don't worry. i'll keep you posted with cheezy songs about enjoying the time i had here. but i know that it's time for me to go home. there's work to be done and a whole new scene for me to be a part of. and a fresh perspective on things.

though i'm going to miss terribly the people who mean the most to me here, i reflect on that golden nugget of wisdom. we will always miss out on things [in this case, people], but we will always gain something by doing what we choose. < thanks, e ;) >  and i have gained from this time here. that is for sure. but the season is changing, once again.