40 weeks! And still pregnant, I feel good, no I'm not going into labor right now, no I don't know when...

But I did clean the grout in the upstairs bathroom today, vacuum, sort through our shoe collection and set some donations aside, pair up all of Mike's socks and got rid of the solos, organize his clothing drawers (mine are already organized, duh!) change the sheets, do a load of laundry, take Walter for an almost 2 mile walk AND he got a puppy playdate today. I think I'll put some cookies in the oven. (I made some dough the other day and froze the leftovers.) I'm hoping this is the nesting instinct and burst of energy that comes right before birth! I did feel the baby move a lot today. But I feel that every day. (wonk wooonk)

No, but I keep reminding myself that I am very thankful I feel so good physically. It would be a whole other ballgame if I felt miserable. This is just mental. Waiting. Waiting actively. Enjoying the moments and time I have now. Being present. 

But with every gas bubble, I can't help but wonder if this is it?!  Please, if you have had a baby, don't burst my bubble that it doesn't just feel like a giant gas bubble and then you're done ;-)  Just hold off on your pregnancy stories until after my delivery. Then we can share Game Day stories ;-)  Unless of course your story is that it was incredible and great and you have nothing but positive energy to share. Then, share away!

Week 40 is crazy. Baby is still cooking. We've passed St. Joseph's Day, which was one of my mom's guesses for Baby Mac's arrival. We've passed both Thursdays that my Grams suggested, since both my mom and aunt were born on Thursdays, but I guess technically I still have some hours left in today and heck, I'd take a 7 hour labor and delivery story!  Most birthdays of friends and/or family who wanted to share this day (or not share the day) have passed. Our anniversary and due date have passed. The first day of Spring,  my grandma's lottery ticket numbers (although technically there were 3 choices from that ticket!) though there are still a couple of predictions left.  However, if baby doesn't come by Monday, I'm going to be induced (GASP!)!  Now please hold all your comments and judgements to yourself.  All you mamas who claim that every birth is unique and every story is different and there's no judgement, please hold all your judgement. Or at least don't talk about it in front of me ;-) I don't particularly want to be induced. OK, I don't want to be at all. So why not tell the Dr? It's your body, Justine! You have rights!  I know. But honestly, my doctor has seen a lot more births and pregnant people than I have. And I trust her. And she's not bullying me. And I even debated putting this in my post because of the feedback. But that's what blogs are all about, right?! Airing it all out on the interwebs. 

But I mostly don't want to be induced because I'm afraid of how my body will react to the hormones. I know the point of induction is to speed it up. And that messes with the naturalness of birthing. And will probably make the contractions much stronger. And this and that. But, we've been tracking Baby Mac's growth and fluids and all that for the whole time. And the baby has measured above average aka big. And in order to give my body a chance to birth it out the birth canal ;-) we are going to do this. And hey, when it comes down to it, I'm still not in control. I'm not in control of how my birth will go naturally. I'm not in control of how my birth will go if induced. But, I can choose to trust God because the most important thing is that a baby is coming. And we want it to be healthy. And it's a gift from God so he knows exactly how it's supposed to come. And thank goodness for doctors and modern medicine who study birthing and babies and mamas.  So there. Now, on to the last update of Baby Mac before he or she comes into the world!

How far along?  40.
How do I feel, physically? Feeling good. See above for today's activity!
Maternity clothes? Pretty much alternating between a few classics. Although I blow dry my hair and put on some mascara every day now because it could be the end of an era soon...
Sleep:  Actually been able to get some good stretches in this week.
Best moment this week: Monday. Me and Mike were bored. And we laughed about it! 
Miss Anything? Being able to chest bump after a killer move on the bball court. JK. Or am I?
Movement: Yes. Still moving around in there!
Food cravings: Chocolate. And steak. 
Anything making you queasy or sick: Nah. 
Labor Signs: No. None. Zippola.
Belly Button in or out? Flat. But I cleaned it out today... TMI? sorry. I thought we were past that. 
Wedding rings on or off? Still on! 
How am I feeling, emotionally?: I feel a bit testy and on edge. Trying to keep the main thing the main thing and assume the best of people. Yet I'm excited and nostalgic all at the same time, too!

If I don't have a baby tomorrow, I will post some pics of the nursery!