today's yoga mantra.

today i told my favorite instructor at the gym [jennetje!] that it would be one of my last yoga classes with her for a while, due to a new job.   i'm really sad i won't be able to go to her classes anymore. she brings me a lot of joy, even though i don't even know her outside of the gym.

our "mantra" at yoga class was Joy-Love-Peace-Acceptance.  It's not a very spiritual class to begin with but our instructor does like to leave us with optimistic thoughts. I often associate it with my faith.  So she talked about Spring Cleaning, because who isn't talking about Spring cleaning these days?!

the things that really resonated with me were peace and acceptance of your situation, because without that, you won't experience joy. i concur. i don't think joy is having everything you want when you want it. although, i admit that's how i often make it out to be. i think that God brings us through different trials, storms, fun times, crazy times all for a reason. whether or not you believe that it's God who's doing that, people say it all the time: if it's meant to be, it will be. it all happens for a reason.

what's hard is when i have to accept things about myself that i wish weren't true about myself. oh what a reminder that i am a broken person. i can't do it on my own. period.  it scares me a bit to start teaching because i won't be awesome at it. what?!!!  it's a reality. i'm a new teacher. i've got a lot to learn. but this is the next step. so i'll do what i can with what i have. and trust that God knows where he's leading me next. and what he wants me to let go of so that i can more fully hold on to him.